A Post While Aidil Sleeps
Well hello there~!
I know..I know.. It's been so long. So much for 'having a new laptop will right everyday' kind of spirit. So according to my last post it was January. Now it's the 2nd of June. I'm very excited that Ramadhan is around the corner! just in a few days! Since the hiatus, I have been doing a lot of things, experiencing a lot of things. Aidil's getting smarter everyday, Nuar had his knee surgery done and recovering. Alhamdulillah. As for me, I have become fatter. It's difficult for me to find the right size. My health, not ok. If you want to know, I'm struggling just to breath. I don't want to get on that.
I'm taking this opportunity by making Ramadhan the month of cleansing. Internally like emotionally, self esteem, self control, thought and feelings etc. I want it to be cleanse. What I hope and expect in this month of Ramadhan is that I can understand about myself and what I can be, learn something new and of course at the end I am better than I am before. I hope with Allah's will, all this I can achieve.
Nuar has been on leave for the past two months because of his knee surgery. Dah terasa biasa dia ada dengan kita untuk dua bulan. I learn a few things about him which I havent before. kengkadang tu tahap kesabaran tu diduga tapi ambil itu sebagai pengajaran, pengalaman sebagai seorang isteri. Everyday I learn new things. I must say that I am not good on dealing new things. When I feel like things got out of my hands, jadi cepat marah and melenting. Bila dah terlepas cakap tu nothing even one, feels good about it. Terasa sangat kagum dengan tahap kesabaran Nuar. Deep inside, I can feel that I'm not myself anymore. Hard to explain but if you can understand, I guess you have been there.
I want to change and improve. Tak banyak pun ,sikit pun jadilah.
I know I should have write about me shopping for my Raya clothes but instead this. Sorry. maybe next time. Hope your Ramadhan will be fruitful . Selamat Berpuasa !
