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Summary of 2016

Hye!

Actually I prefer a slide show for my summary of 2016 cause I have a lot of pictures and let the pictures do the talking. From the beginning I hoped that this year would be smooth, well.. Not that smooth though. The first quarter, Noir had his knee surgery. Demc to Prince court. Luckily Noir brother was there to help. I owe him big. It doesnt stop there, later on Noir got cervical spondylosis. This is consider as my highlight of 2016. Eversince he got it, we've been in and out of hospitals seeking consultations, options and medical treatments. This has challenged our relationship, putting us into a situation that me and Noir has never been. On our fourth year of marriage, the challenges came and becomes harder.

As for Aidil, he grows and learn new things each day. On november, we both can see him expressing himself differently. When he's mad, he started biting. Out of sudden he came to us and started kicking and clawing. What i can learn from this is that he just wanted attention. He doesnt have anyone else but us. He wanted all the attention that he can get. There are times that i loose my patience. Noir always there to make situations better. His level of patience is top notch. One of the reason why I love him. Aidil's getting smarter by the day. Every night before sleep, I always told myself that I need to try more harder to be the best for him. I do make mistakes. I regret and I wanted to improve. I always think back what have i done that day, all the things that is wrong and then what I can fix and make it better tomorrow. Being a mother is hard. You will feel down when you see other mother are better than you. Wishing that you could do the same but you can't. Difficult.

Somehow I feel that I don't try hard enough.

Improve. The thing that help me to move on.
Effort. An action to show that you are trying.
Tawakkal. Allah is always there for you.

If you don't understand then it is alright. Did not expect anyone to understand but myself. A lot has happened and i learn a lot now. New things, bad things, etc.

Hmm..., what else?

For 2017, I pray that it will be better for us. I hope that I will be better. Better Mother, better wife and daughter. Also if Allah knows that I am ready to have a second child, I will accept it with a blessed heart. Allah knows best. I trust Him. I should watched what I eat. My weight is off the roof. Another thing that i need to focus. I'm thirty now. I eat like I'm eighteen. I need to watch my weight. I need to control what I eat.  I have to focus more on fitness. Urgh.. 2016 ended like a blinked eye. And one more thing. I need to improve my relationship with Allah. My Creator. Noir told me, maybe the reason that I woke up every night is because Allah wanted me to talk to Him. Tahajjud. When you take care your solat, everything will fall into place. If you solat on time, even better. Imagine the rewards that you can get and not just pahala you know. So I guess that all I want and hoped for. I hoped that your 2016 ended like you intended to and your 2017 will be as you wanted.

Happy New Year !!

Assalamualaikum.